Cheers To 21: Reflections On A Momentous Birthday

Job 8:7 - Your beginnings will seem humble, so prosperous will your future be.

Purpose. Intention. Growth.

It's hard to believe that eight months have passed since my last post. I've genuinely missed writing here, but the break was necessary and rejuvenating. Time has flown by, bringing numerous significant events and personal growth. Moving forward, I am committed to approaching this blog with greater intention, promising a collection of captivating reads.

An update! It's been a month since my 21st birthday!

21 and grateful, 21 and expectant, 21 and anxious, 21 and broke (lol).

My birthday was amazing, I spent it with my favourite person and I also received gifts from my favourite people. This one was emotional because it was all unexpected, it's been 5 years since I last received any gifts or did anything on the 24th of May... lol yes I remember.

So since my 16th birthday, I barely got anything and never did anything on my birthdays. For my 20th, I did try to take myself out and do a few things I enjoy but I stopped being expectant as the day approaches, but I rather focus on the fact that I'm still alive and have so much to still achieve. This year was a pleasant surprise. I'm ever grateful for the thought that came with it and the memories I made. But...

My mind at 21:

At 20 I promised myself to write a book and publish it by 21, I haven't done that. To be fair. I started but I am yet to finish, reason being, I had to take my mental health into consideration and put it on hold and I also had to ask myself many questions about this book like, "would people actually be drawn to this story?" and "of what use is the story? What impact will it bring?"

I know my reasons are well-intentioned, but I can't help but feel disappointed for not accomplishing my goal.

Asides from this, there is still so much I have on the list for 21, this blog included and I still wonder if I can accomplish it all. With school that is currently ruling my entire routine (because I really want to graduate next year and I keep having scares). I struggle a lot with anxiety and to still put so much pressure on myself is not ideal but at times, I have to, you know...

Nevertheless, I am really excited to see where this year takes me and excited to see everyone that will join me on this journey.

As we grow, may we never forget to dream, and dream big!

Thank you for joining Unpoken Gist. I hope yours will be a frequent visit.

With love and anticipation.