Faith Does Not Require Evidence.

"Syntishe, faith does not require evidence, Faith is the evidence..."

Let's rewind a bit, shall we?

I've been a little sceptical to share this, well if I'm being honest at all, then not just a little. In my previous post I spoke of imposter syndrome and how much it weighs on me ever so often. So a recent and ongoing "episode" is currently academically, where my grades were unable to retain their usual glory inspite of working so hard.

Now as a third year student, aining to pursue my honours degree after this year, it is quite scary considering the usual scramble for space, hence the need to be among the top achievers. This year I've worked and cried just as much, many times contemplated dropping out or cutting my journey short and end it as soon as I completed my current degree, focus on other things and run away from this stress. Sure enough I spoke about returning to My Source, but this time the dissapointment was enough to crush me beyond my ability to even cry out for help, i simply wanted to dissapear.

I took a two week break from social media, in this time I only spoke to family and my best freind, whom I know can pour into me, hold my hand in weakness, and pray over me. I was able to gather enough strength to cry out to God and just pour out my heart. I told Him I was unhappy, I wanted to quit because I've worked to hard to be compensated with dissapointment. I told Him I want to have faith that everything will work out but I feel numb and from the look of things, that is impossible.

I was immediately interrupted, when God said to me "faith does not require evidence, faith is the evidence".

How faithful is He? Honestly...

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for,

the evidence of things not seen."

~ Hebrews 11:1

I find it beautiful that even in the midst of me doubting Him, His love persists and He is so gentle that He was willing to respond and try to reassure me of good things ahead. That yes, I may not have seen what is being done behind the scenes, but His plans for me remain good in every circumstance and that I need to know my faith in itself is evidence of what I hope too see, while it is still unseen. Beautiful right?

In all honesty, there is still so much uncertainty, but this bring so much peace to my heart, and in faith I know I'll be back to testify soon.

God loves yooouuuuuuu!!!

Thank you for joining Unspoken Gist. I hope yours will be a frequent visit.

With love and anticipation.